Sad sshit

PLEASE.

DONT.

LEAVE.

ME.

it's gonna be fine

i just wanna hold you in my arms right nao.

meeting her tmr. after friday prayers

we need to clear our doubts, express how we feel and i wanna cheer her up.

i dont wanna lose you babe.

2009

Back from east coast.

today's post will be a happy one. eventho there's certain parts of me that isnt all joyfull. but, bleah! idc. =D

ok so...went to east coast with wira coz the rest were alr there.

reached at abt 7pm? idk. they were skimming.

then did some stupid shit thingy. i hit fadz in the head with a damn fantastic frisbee throw. (fucking pro siolzxzx).

then uh...i forgot. lepak, eat, talk abt life, some iluminati shit, religious stuff and girls. haha!i dint talk much about the girls topic.

tuned in the mystery jam 12. then we started telling each other ghost stories. haha!

then we lepak nearer to the water. i fell asleep and they all cb leave me there to sleep alone.

me and ayie damn siao and high.

we wanted to sleep. but we kept making each other laugh like fuck. in the end, we joined the rest with their discussions bout life. HAHAH. (suck my jubang everyday. HAHAHAHAHHA)

woke up the nxt day, had breakfast, headed back to camp, bla bla bla i forgot what. HAHA.

then i went home early. wanted to bbq and countdown with them. mum told me to come home. #$!#@$

anw, here's a few pic. dint take much. coz all busy having fun.

Yas nak step hxc. AHAHAHA!!

hey baby.

i'll love you for what you are and what you're not.

embrace your flaws but dont let them over power you.

even though we're not tgt, i already love you.

that's it.

god fucking dammit.

i should not have blogged in the first place. i hate blogging now.

die blogger. u make my life miserable. thanks.

and babe, it's not ur fault. i think it's mine. i tend to be paranoid too fast and my imaginations go wild. i made conclusions without even thinking about it.

FUCK. MY. LIFE.

hope to talk to you soon.

love,

Qamarul Rabbani.

I HATE MY LIFE

OH MY GOD BABE!!

IM SUCH A FUCKING ASS LOSER UH.

SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.

F.U.N

went to amy's crib bitches!

sorta nervous at first coz i dont really know her friends.

but was fucking funny. :)

crazy ppl. seriously. nothing to talk about but sex. -.-

and guys...dont misuse my name please. HAHAHA!!

my name's not for orgasm.

joe and andy are horny bastards.

nizam like very quiet.

the rest all noisy. HAHAH.

i like watching amy play her red NDS. like so fun. xD

she has comfy bed and pillows :0

then met IWA at kampong.

ferrero roche. n_n

tmr = sch then shopping.

wed-fri = meet amy after her work + bbq @ ECP

and i wanna take shower now. bye.

Kawaii ne!!

why is she so cute!!!!!!!!!!

argh! it's killing me.

Dead

i think there is no FUCKING change in Hell this is gonna happen.

sry bro, i cant do it.

thinking of it makes me feel like dying.

Green light?

woke up from a fucking wonderful dream. =D X 1000

went johore. eat. eat. shop. hahaha.

tmr got gig. cranium carnage! been awhile since i saw them. comfirm covering as i lay dying. LOLOL.

LR also performing. LR is not lightning revanant btw. HAHAHA.

meeting the dudes at jurong east mrt at 3.30pm. meeting amy at blackhole at 4-ish. get tix. $6. if not, $10(knncb).

finally get to meet her tmr. after a long time. HAHHA!

Blessing with a curse.

skate!

again. yes. i know. hahaha!!

almost landed fs flip. knncb.

k fucking tired now.

nights peepul.

and im going to X-massacre this sat.

AMY! i'll headbang infront of yew. heheheh. but dont hit my head with ur bass.

k love ya. <3

Son ov a Bitch im going to Break You.

eeeeeeee sibok siol. wtf. go die. nabei. cibai.

k just got back from skate. kinda productive after almost 2 weeks of not skating.

tried fs flip. kinda dig the motion alr. thanks to acapzxz. HAHAH!! zxz. k diam laa~

went to sch in the morning to fucking waste time. not productive at all. syaheed best. came 5 min after me, never bring anything. go inside, use sch comp, facebook. nice.

and im gonna try the latte floats in sch. sounds nice. hope it's fucking nice. xD

i've fallen. whee! thanks ***

Wiseman

What you give, you get back. Karma.

well, i hope so. xD

Fidgity.

I havent skate for almost 2 weeks now. fucking itching to flip here and there. k la, even if im a noob, still, a kickflip/heelflip is enough. xD

trying to learn the ways of fs flip and 360 flips from acapgay.

oh yea, and anyone have electric guitar? not using or wdv and willing to lend me? HEHEHE.

coz i wanna try guitar.

and i dont want you to intefere with my life. fuck off and get ur own friends.

Mission Success!

Thanks kak Anna Bodom for getting the Lamb of God tix!!

FUCKING FUCK! IM GOING TO SEE LAMB OF FUCKING GOD LIVE!!

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeebaaaaaaaaaaaiiiii.

yas and wira are going too. =D

i want tiramisu! T-T

Boo!

Fucking Bored after Amy went to meet her friend. =/

k i think i'll sleep nao. Tmr meeting yas at cck mrt at 8.15am.

going AMK to get our lamb of god tix. hope to get the $75. hee!

and maybe meeting Amy after that (that is after her project thingy).

ok nights biatches

Paranoia

I told her.

She said i was cute.

Idk if that's good or bad but...at least im cute? heh.

Gloomy these few days huh?

Patience my boy...

OII!!

back from the outside world. HHAHA

woke up at 4.32am, 5.15am, 6.30am and 8am this morning. got different intervals. im cool. i know. xD

went out at 9am this morning. brought the cake and a bottle of choc short-bread. went AMK to meet Amy. She damn pretty laa can. hahaha.

ok so, was damn hungry. went cheers to get air bunga, and paid for Amy's lemon barley? or was it lychee. for got. HEH.

then we walked around, looking for prata. then she was like, "i know where im going and im going to take you to a prata shop." Turns out there werent any. hahah. (babe, you sorta fail. and im not mean xD ).

then went for chicken rice at banquet nearby. thought the serving was not enough. felt kinda bloated after the meal. hhaha. then we walked around AMK hub. boooringg place. like, seriously.

followed her to buy some piercing thingies. DAMN FUNNY. she wanted to pay right, then the cashier spoke to her in chinese, then she was like, "huh? hor." then placed a $50 note. then we're like...giggling like mad ppl. then i think the cashier realised then spoke to her in failed english. i wanted to laugh aloud but held it in. HAHAHHA.

Went outside to sit down and chat a lil'. but the effing security was like..."oi oi, cannot sit there.". then we were like..."what the hell laa.". and find other places to seat.

talked about stuff. bla, bla, bla, yada, yada. ok.

she told me to go home 1st but i dint want to...haha.

accompanied her to bus interchange to wait for her bus. realised i forgot my phone, left it at the place we sat. Ran like mad. HAHAHA. ok i was damn paiseh la.

Bus arrived, said goodbye, gave her the cake i made(with mum's help) and watched her as she board the bus. then i made my way to Aiden's. slack there, learned guitar a lil;, watched fucked up vids, stone and waited for 5pm.

met yas, yat and mun at bb mrt. Diq joined us at fareast. went to eat at level 5. Nasi Goreng Pataya with teh tarik. damn shiok. went to 2001, saw some nice t-shirts and i saw a thrasher bandana.

damn nice uh. wanted to buy but i damn broke right nao. T_T

then went to inoki, saw kasman. looooooong time never see him.

went outside, smoke, HSA dudes came, checked particulars, munir and yas busted, im alr 18( xD ) and they were fined. HAHAHA. sad la of course. =/

syadiq and gf came just in time to witness it. LOL. then they went eat.

stoned there for ahwhile, went to talk to kasman again, asked for a weird cigg. Le yong came. smoke, went to starbucks, stone, slack, do stupid things.

and now im home. yay!

Holidays.

HOLIDAYS!

time for some skate/jamming/gamming time!

Lamb of God tickets starts selling this coming Monday. Gonna headbang like fuck, mosh like fuck and...err. stone like fuck. HHAHA!!

and there's holiday class for advanced C++. i got an effing "F" for that module. Die.

Tmr meeting Amy at bishan at 10am. She onli 2 stops from bishan mrt laa. wth.

and i have to leave house at...9? to reach on time.? hahah!!

well, she has to reach harbour front by 12pm cellebrate with the FTW peepul. then gonna meet IWA for dinner or something. just lepakszxz.

and i need a fucking vocalist for my fucking band. wanna perform this 26th. !@#!#$

Lone Wolf.

For the first time in a fucking long time, im at home at 5.

bored of dota and l4d2 and i wanna go home. not feeling well, physically and emotionally. yea, im emo. fuck that. i disgust myself.

Software Engineering assignment part 1 done and tmr need to hand in comG part2. shit.

Been stupid these few days. thinking bout unnecessary stuff.

been awhile since i lepak/outing with IWA. just walk around, talk cock, eat, lepak.

and...

holiday nxt week! skate ton or camp? up to you guys. i dont mind anything. janji best.

and im beginning to fall for her. x(

ACPP

sch ended and im at the library playing some game. xD

I LIKE YEW!! <3

Happy flu.

what up ppl.

im in CLASS.

just finished presentation. kinda nailed it? idk.

mr ng said, "cmon qamarul, if you can tell me what's wrong with your code, u'll get good grades."

then i was like, "u're kidding me right?"

hahahahaha.

ok i have to finish my work nao. gonna eat later.

was 50 minutes late and he marked me 2hrs late. NABEI.

and i havent eat...woke up at 8.21, straight chiong then go out.

onli had 1 stick of cigg. and a bottle of milk tea.

ok bai.

tears dont fall. high on the motherfucking song.

You guys made my day.

having headache right now...but still am gonna chiong maple. not gonna be left out by you bitches. ahahah!! welll, im like, the highest level. so it's really no big deal.

so, woke up this morning, shocked to see that my comp still on. forgot to turn off. HEH. anyway, i instantly went inside maple played my aran.

then checked msn. Amy was online. she's asleep though. HAHAHA. (So much for waking up early huh? xD)

anyways, played for awhile, had breakfast, wanted to make brownies for amy's bdae. but im out of hazelnuts. knncb. then search the files for tiramisu cake. then...no fetta cheese. HAHAHA. FAIL!

then i asked my mum. she said she just made a choc cake...she'll help me decorate it tmr.

then she asked me, "why the sudden decision to make a bdae cake? u never do that." she shot all sorts of qns to me like..."who's it for?", "when u wanna give ur friend?", "ur friend order uh?" and "issit guy or girl?"

i just kept quiet. HAHHA.

went to sch, did project, played a lil', went to uncle's how. grandpa fell ill. idk why. arm strain or something.

then now im back home. with headache. tired also. and tmr im like...not wanting to go sch. damn lazy. and the guys are prolly at ecp having fun skating. w/o me. fuck. hahah. nehmind, nxt week holiday alr. so fun.

k im having a crush on her. x( idk if it's a good thing or a bad thing. quite paranoid on how she's gonna react when i tell her. ahhahaa! hope she doesnt scream at me.

k im off to maple. ^.^

Qam, you're such a loser faggot.

i am embarrassed to say that. i am a lame ass mother fucking loser.

yea. nothing else to it. the phrase says it all.

1) i suck in life

2)i suck in sch work

3)im the black sheep of the family

4)i FAIL. and...

5)i dont think i'll live long enough to achieve what i want in life. seeing how things are currently are.

im not a strong person i must say. i give up easily unless i REALLY have the motivation.

i guess this is God's challenge for me in this life.

Distress!

Math test over.

was fucking abysmal.

but i got the direction of the normal(planar eqn shit) correct. n_n,v,,

wanted to meet amy just now. coz i dont wanna go home early today. coz tmr no sch. but too bad have to go. late afternoon. software engineering group assignment. good thing rifdi knows how to do. and i just follow his commands. hhaha!!

so, ate mcspicy otw to yck mrt from sch. junhan lent me his psp. (yay!)

I STARTED PLAYING AUDITION!! omg!

but sad laa, must wait till amy finish installing her games. for some reason the installer just wont run. idk why but...yea.

okay im gonna play maple nao!

Anti-human Manifesto

Feeling fucking anti-human.

except you of course.

needing a cure.

Fuck yea!

monday!! bitch. but was a good day.

Went to sch, dint eat coz stomach ache. Went for lecture. Data Structs. Wasnt listening half the time. xD

then went library, fought raj to duel master. a well fought battle indeed. LOL

then went bugis to jam with nick and aiden. mike was working. SAD.

aidenbitch brought along his portable audio interface shit thingy. then we played some covers(i long time never jam i sucked) and tried our original. Shitty quality.

yea, so...yea. HAHA!

and im like, having trouble installing maple. ccbknnbfuck can.

Lazy!

hi Fucker who reads this blog.


day began with me, waking up to mum's usual weekend screaming and my bro asking me to skate.
kinda shocked but. yea. was lazy at first, but fuck it im gonna be fucking bored playing MMOs the whole fucking day.

got back, drank warm apple tea, ate brownies, sat at comp, msn-ed amy, she showed me her video. (Fuckers'ville.) HAHHAHA!!! damn funny laaa~

k, then i watched lucky star, soul eater and fell asleep listening to 'miss may i', woke up and...now im still bored. =D

i hate staying home on weekends. hope mum'll bring us shopping or wdv. =/
oh wells.

gonna jam tommorow yay! excited fuck. been long time since i jammed. ^^V

Bored, thus, created a blog. xD

ok. so like, im fucking bored right now and i know i have to revise for the math test.Been in my room since 9.30am? and its 2.08 right nao man...im such a no life. yes, no need to rub it in my face.

I WANNA JAM! PLEASE! ONEGAI!


and no one know bout this blog. muahahah!!